last saturday we attended a birthday party. unfortunately LK is not around to enjoy Jollibee.
late that night kami namang mga oldies ang lumabas. we went to Blue River (in retiro, qc).
i wont be going to the details anymore. here’s a realization i made:
those who became pregnant at an early age or got pregnant out of wedlock will be more strict with their child/ren (especially if its a girl) thus i presume in 15 years or so early pregnancies will no longer be an issue.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Thursday, May 12, 2011
april 2010
April 11th, 2010
in 15 years or so
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may 2010
May 31st, 2010
my 26th birthday blog
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i’ve been on a roller coaster ride again the past few weeks…
and if i could only jump on that roller coaster…
sorry if i’m being morbid.
anywhoo, i reviewed my blogposts for june 2009.
just so sad to find out that i wasnt able to hold on to my promise:
that is to become more aggressive and fearless.
and it seemed so opposite on what i have decided to do with my life from this day onwards.
from my last year’s birthday blog, i sound so positive and contented with my life.
but now? i dont know. maybe because i’m getting jealous?
to whom? i dont know either. maybe jealous of what other people are capable of doing with their lives?
yeah, i know. you’d say, live life to the fullest, life is so short for you to waste it.
well i’d say, coz you have the money to live your lives to the fullest.
i know, you dont want to continue reading this crap. go. i dont care. i’m over it.
i’ll just think that this is the life designed for me. and i wont have the life that im dreaming of. in this way i wont get jealous.
my only wish is that you pray for me. i’ll try my best to work out on my attitude with my life.
for the meantime i will be wearing a mask. and i hope in time this mask would fade and reveal a new me, an understanding me, the one who would be capable of accepting the realities of life.
february 2010
February 3rd, 2010
issue alerts
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wala nga akong issue alerts na natanggap for the month of january, punong puo naman ako ng issues sa buhay, kamusta naman?
hayy, on the lighter side, just last night i passed the recertification of being a rep that can take producer calls (line specific for life insurance agents calling for the policy they’ve written). hindi ko alam kung magiging masaya ako or hindi eh. una, queing kaya. pano pa ako magbabasa ng ECLIPSE by stephanie meyer? pangalawa, ang tatamad mag-survey, mag survey man, mga wala pang utang na loob, ibabagsak ka pa, hay naku, hello csat at csat utilization. kanina lang i ended my day with 69 point something csat, hay nakers. pangatlo, parati silang nagmamadali, nadadala ako, feeling ko hindi ko mabibigay lahat ng info na needed at dahil jan baka di mag improve QA ko. PERO, sige iisipin ko na lang, isa siyang PRIDE bilang isang customer service rep. think positive ika nga.
yun nga, yung QA ko. kamusta naman. san ba ako nagkamali? o masyado lang OC-OC ang QA namin? 69? mygad, kala ko magiging record ko na yun 78, hindi pa pala.
sana lang maregular ako sa lagay kong toh hehe
november 2009
November 13th, 2009
just to blog
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hay
kung may matino lang sana akong maisusulat
kwento na lang siguro ako tungkol sa work ko?
ayun kagabi, super queuing. pano, ang daming absent. kainis.
sa team na lang namin, we’re like 11. dalawa nasa vocal and accent training (kung sa ps katumbas ng comet). 5 kaming present, the rest absent. hayy.
75 calls ko kagabi, malayong malayo sa number of calls sa aft. ngaragan nga eh. tas papadalhan ka pa ng email ng tl mo na may nagrereklamo sayong insurance agent at nagfifeeling na di ko daw alam ang ginagawa ko. &^%%$
actually nadadalian ako sa account. may mga ewan lang talagang clients/agents.
pero ang dami ng umalis sa wave namin at marami pang susunod. kanina nga lang nagpaalam na si deejaye. sa monday naman si ben, at susunod si pia. hayy.
anywhoo, we had a team breakfast at dampa courtesy of tl mike hehe. dami namin, ako, si foxy, si jr at syempre si tl lang ang present.
and i had one realization: wag maghangad ng iba. makuntento sa kung anung meron ka.
january 2010
January 10th, 2010
having a “sup-call”
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i.e. customers asking for a supervisor or manager, for whatever reason/s you’ll read that later
When I was still a newbie in the call center industry (wow, tenured na daw kase ako) getting a sup call is understandable. Apparently as I’ve matured (naks) it’s becoming an insult, and shows how incompetent I am. Well that’s just for me.
But what are the reasons as to why they are looking for a sup?
ONE. They’re looking for a supervisor at the onset of the call. It could be that they were not satisfied with the previous rep they spoke with. Or the line got disconnected while the previous rep is looking for a supervisor for them. Or the previous rep intentionally hangs up. (LOL!)
TWO. The client and the representative got an argument. Probably because the caller is insisting that s/he is right to the best of his/her knowledge and doesn’t want to be corrected, or rather s/he doesn’t like to accept the explanation being given, or as simple as they don’t like to listen.
And THIRD. (Scenario that I don’t like to happen. This is the scenario that would show I am an unskilled representative). This time, the error is with the rep. S/he could not understand what the customer needs, and ends up having the customer looking for a supervisor.
september 2009
September 12th, 2009
ang paghahanap ng work ay parang paghahanap lamang ng makakasama sa buhay
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ang paghahanap ng trabaho ay parang paghahanap lang ng makakasama sa buhay….
ito’y biglang aking naisip pagkauwi ko pagkatapos ng isang job offer (nakana!) siguro mga past 12 midnight na ako nakauwi nun at ang tagal ko pa dalawin ng antok. ang weird kase ng start ng HR nila for recruitment, 1pm.
o bakit nga ba?
kase naisip ko, sa paghahanap ng unang work, sa simula may mga sine-set tayong mga standards or minsan may mga target na tayong company kung saan natin gusto magwork. parang love, may mga standard na tayo diyan, minsan naman may mga dream boy or dream girl na tayong target na ligawan o sana ay manligaw sayo.
sa simula kung hindi man marami ay may mangilan-ngilan tayong nakukuha or natatanggap na rejections. sa lovelife ang tawag diyan, “basted”. tsk, tsk, tsk! mareject ka ng pinapangarap mong company, siguro kase hindi ka fit or hindi nila nakikita sayo ang something. parang love, kayong mga boys nababasted kase may mga hindi nakikita sa inyo ang nililigawan nyo. yung mga babae namang nagdi-daydream ng kanilang mga prince charming ayun at may ibang gusto, at ikaw ay isang dakilang friend na lamang.
yung iba naman winner na agad sa tinatarget na work. kumbaga sa love parehong si lalake at si babae ay love at first ang naramdaman. magtatagal sa pinapasukan. magtatagal bilang couple. ngunit sa paglipas ng panahon, magbabago ang yung mga priorities,magbabago ang yung mga needs, magbabago ang iyong mga aspirations. hindi mo na ito nakikita sa kasalukuyan mong pinapasukan. at kakalas ka na. hahanapin ang mga ito sa ibang company. tulad ng love, sa tinagal tagal ng inyong pagsasama akala nyo kasal na lang ang kulang. pero may mga kakilala ako, ten years, 8 years, 5 years na, pero naghihiwalay pa rin ng landas. pano kase si babae parang nagbabago na, si lalake naman naghahanap ng ibang “company”.
so eto ka ngayon, naghahanap ng work, naghahanap ng love. pero hindi na basta-basta. hindi na ganun kadali.
ayan, so yan lang yung ideya ko. hehehe
ps: walang koneksyon to sa love ko, may konek lang to sa paghahanap ng work ko
july 2009
July 27th, 2009
ulcer
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i’ve been having attacks of ulcer from time to time.
the first time was december of 2004. then when i was already working as a call center agent, that was august of 2005, thus prompting me to resign. the third attack was september 2007. i’m not really sure about the month, but one thing is for sure, hindi kami magka away ni kaizer, coz he was the one who brought me to makati med emergency room.
and the last attack just happened last saturday at around 1am. around 2am we were already on our way to san juan de dios hospital in pasay.
grabeh yung sakit, i was like dying na, parang nagdedeliryo na ako sa sakit. as in im shouting. im biting my hand. i want to feel pain on other parts of my body.
mas masakit pa kesa ng nanganak ako.
eto pa matindi, yung kaliwang kamay ko na tuturukan para iinject yung gamot ay bumigay daw yung vein. kaya turok ulit sa kanan. hay naku.
mga 3 or 4 hours pa yata kami nagstay sa ER.
so that’s saturday right? may pasok sana ako. so nag call in na yung asawa ko for me. aba, ayaw daw tanggapin ng workforce? sino kaya yun? at di daw tumatanggap ng third party. sinigawan tuloy siya ng asawa ko.
eh di we’re about to leave na. we were asking for a med cert. alam niyo kung anung sagot? di daw sila nag iisue. W-O-W. hindi nadala sa ngiti ng asawa ko yung bading na doctor. ang pinagawa lang eh mag follow up daw kami ng monday. so baka yung slip na lang yun ang ipepresent ko. gudlak kong tatanggapin diba? sa akin wala na rin namang lagay yun kase last two days ko na sa tuesday at wednesday. di ko naman kasalanan na atakihin ako ng ulcer.
yan lang.
june 2009
June 18th, 2009
the most illogical way to do…
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“Only God can truly see the start and the end of any situation…
He is always in the process of preparing you for the next step…
From where you are, it may look like the most illogical way to go, but once you take the step, it’ll become clearer why you’re there…”
i received that quote this morning from one of my friends who is still an avid fan of unlimited texting. i don’t read forwarded quotes anymore. my thumb 
has an auto-delete program 
but i was prompted to read his message for some reason. and thank God i did read it.
i just thought that that message is so timely for me. for those who aren’t aware yet, i have already submitted a resignation letter. for what reason? i just want to make a big step. for what, that i don’t know. because i’m 25? because i want to earn more? tsk, tsk, tsk
i’ve known myself to be an impulsive decision-maker. and indeed this resignation thingy is one.
just this morning i came from thomson-reuters for an exam. i successfully passed their exam that includes html coding, page review, english proficiency, and listening skills. i was the first one to arrive. about 8 applicants or so came after me but all of them failed. there is still a girl whose doing the english proficiency exam when my initial interview had finished.
i did apply as well in acs, but i havent received any call or message for a job offer yet. may be i failed the final slash panel interview which took about 30 minutes or so while the previous two agents just had it for around 10 minutes. the interviewers are having a hard time accepting my reason on why i would like to resign in my current job. when, if i succesfully passed i would just get precisely the same salary that i’m getting, in addition to that i’ll have a graveyard shift.
i’m still eyeing one more company and that is 24/7. i’m planning to visit their office tomorrow but maybe i’ll just have to wait for a call from them. any whoo, ninez already referred me =)
so yeah, resigning is the most illogical way to do right now, but i need to move, for me, for LK…
June 8th, 2009
so how was my birthday?
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it’s supposed to be an ordinary day, me going to work, fixing schedule changes, ticket rejects and paper ticket notification.
but LK’s insect bite na mukha ng pigsa pero wala namang mata is getting larger. i was suppose to bring him thursday to his pedia, pero ganyan na kase itsura niya, so napilitan na akong umabsent. ayoko na nga sanang pumasok eh.
his pedia (dra. elizabeth barba) decided to have it remove na thru surgery. eh kaso yung surgeon, 1pm pa. kaya yung call in ko na half day sumobra pa. pumasok na rin ako kahit less than 5 hours na lang ipapasok ko, sayang ang RTA/SAF.
ok na rin naman siya, one week na tomorrow and minor surgery niya. and i’ll be bringing him again tomorrow for follow up. sana makuha ko yung leave. na-retract ko na kase yun.
June 1st, 2009
first quarter evaluation
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alam ko, kalahatian na ng taon. i’m pertaining to my life
t’was exactly 5pm in tabaco city when i had my first cry. 
that was june 2, 1984.
ang bilis noh? ngaun i’m a mother to a 6-month old handsome baby boy. well, he’s turning 7-month old this coming june 6th.
EARLY DAYS
i’ve spent my early childhood in a little barrio called evangelista (that’s in umingan, pangasinan). but due to some circumstances we have to stay for good in bicol. i’ve had my elementary education in tiwi central school. i was an achiever. naging 1st honor ako ng grade 3. kaya lang dahil sa paniniwalang ang matalino ay di kailangang mag aral, naging top 7 lang ako ng grade 4. consistent naman din ako sa top 10.
TEENAGE YEARS
tabaco national high school. maliit na UP to sa first district ng albay. ang first year dito from section A to section Z9. tas every classroom may 50 students. pinalad akong maging top 50. oo, section one ako nuon, kung tawagin ay science oriented class. pero section 2 na ako from 2nd year to 4th year. masasabi kong matalino ako. hindi ko nga lang talaga hinahasa sarili ko. gusto ko kase ng normal na buhay. nasa 88 to 89 madalas ang average ko at the end of the school year. keribels lang.
tanda ko, naging treasurer ako sa buong second year nuon. naging cheerleader ng freshman. naging extemporaneous contestant. galing ko nga nuon eh, greetings lang ata nasabi ko. bat ba kase ako nakuha nilang contestant? nahilig ako sa acting-actingan ng first at second year. member pa ako ng actor’s guild. isang dakilang mushroom ang role ko nuon sa ‘the legend of tabaco.’ take note, nagsasalitang mushroom. sumali rin ako nuon sa pastores. dream ko sumali nuon sa mga street dancing para sa ibalong festival. kaso mahal ang costume at hindi naman ako miyembro ng alta sociedad. the best na experience ko siguro na matuturing bilang high school student ay ang pagsampal ko kay meynard sa harap nina mrs casin (filipino) at ms dioleta borais. kulit kase ni meynard eh, pinasa picture ko ng nag reyna elena ako. ayun nakita ni casin, pinost sa blackboard!
COLLEGIATE LEVEL
UPLB. ang talino noh? pero ang totoo nyan pasang awa lang ako sa elbi. kinailangan ko ngang umatend nuon ng parang summer class eh. nalimutan ko lang yung tawag. ng time namin optional yun. after a year required ng kunin yun ng mga pasang awa.
kumuha ako ng bs developmental communication course dito. actually lahat ng kinuha kong course may kinalaman sa communication: broadcasting comm at mass comm sa diliman at comm arts at dev com naman sa elbi. kase nga gusto kong ipagpatuloy ang dream ko nuon na maging katulad ni korina sanchez. kaya nga naka braces ako nuon eh. pansin nyo ba? kaso parang di ko yata linya. naiirita na ako nuon kapag pinapagawa kami ng news. pero in fairness natapos ko naman ang course ko ng di kinakailangang mag extend. salamat na lang at si kuya rem ang adviser ko
dahil din sa devcom marami rin akong naging kaibigan. hindi ko nga lang alam kung tinuturing nila akong kaibigan hehehe joke lang!
isang malaking parte din ng college life ko ang NAVIGATORS. isang bagay ang di ko ina akalang mangyayari: ang mag lead. oo, naranasan kong maging leader dito. gumanap ako bilang presidente ng isang taon. hay, pressure ito. buti na lang napaka supportive ng mga constituents ko.
ON BEING A PROFESSIONAL
on time akong nag graduate kahit muntikan ko ng ibagsak ang bio1 at math14, general biology at trigonometry sa hindi nakakaalam. sinubukan kong i apply ang napag aralan ko. kaso wala talaga eh. kaya yun, napadpad sa call center. mataas ang pangarap ko. sabi ko pag iigihan ko para mapromote agad ako. kaso walang nangyari. feeling ko nga napaka incompetent ko na. minsan nagkakaroon pa rin ako ng hope, pero wala talaga. kaya maghahanap na lang ako ng panibagong trabaho. sana dun makapagsimula ako at hindi ma out of focus.
i may not be succesfull as being paid more than 50k a month; being able to travel the philippines/asia/world whenever i want to; being able to buy things/gadgets instantly, but being a mom at this time of my life is already an accomplishment for me. it may not be on the perfect timing and ways but who knows?
HOPELESS ROMANTIC
siguro naman lahat dumanas magmahal, masaktan, umiyak at halos mabaliw (parang oa naman ata yun). at eto na yata ang pinakapaborito kong pangyayari. maaga akong nainlove pero walang naiinlove sa akin hahaha college ng nauso ang text. syempre kaakibat nyan ang textmate. tas may isang inayakan ko pa talaga to the point na nag away kami ng friend ko. kung sino ka mang john paul ka grrrr matapang din ako noon na makipag eyeball. may isa, buong pamilya nya kasama nya. kaso parang autistic. pero mabait parents nya tsaka yung tita at pinsan nya.
isa pang memorable na ngyari sa lovelife ko ay ng maging bulag ako. todo yun. alam nyo yung nauso yung pldt landline to smart cellphone na flatrate? nakapag usap kami nun ng 5hrs straight. nagkikita kami nyan araw araw ha? alam mo yung tipong may moment na hindi siya naiintindihan ng mga tao pero ako naiintindihan ko siya. yung tipong ok lang kung sister lang ang tingin nya sa akin at may iba siyang mahal at alam nyang to the next level na ang feelings ko for him. pero natauhan na din naman ako in the end. buti na lang nauna ako makapag graduate. bat kaya ganun noh?
itong kasalukuyang lalaki sa buhay ko roller coaster din pinagdaanan namin. hindi ko akalaing may gf na pala siya pero naging kami. ng nagreact siya sa pagbablog ko na naging kami nainis ako sa kanya. after a month nagkabalikan kami. blog ulit. until i received a personal message in friendster. aba kaibigan na pala yun ng gf. the next day yung gf mismo nag email at pinadala sa akin ang link ng blogspot nya. sa inis ko i printed all her posts at pinabasa ko sa lahat ng tao sa account namin. tapos after all those things naging close ulit kami. at naging kami for the third time. tumagal kami. pero nagbreak din after 6months. tapos naging friends ulit kami. at naging kami na naman amidst what i did. at nabuo na nga si LK. kulit noh?
hayyyyy
ito na yata ang super synopsis ng buhay ko.
sa lahat ng naging parte ng buhay ko, MARAMING SALAMAT!
sa mga nagpi-pray sa akin, i can’t THANK YOU enough.
sa mga magulang ko, SALAMAT! (sorry po kung hindi ko naisakatuparan ang pagiging newscaster, at naging lolo at lola kayo ng napaka agang panahon, i’m telling you, maraming mga magulang ang naghahangad ng apo pero pinagdadamutan ng mga anak hehehe)
sa mga nagbabasa ng mga blogs ko, TENCHU! (dont worry, lahat ng nababasa nyo hindi fix. naayos din naman. way ko lang talaga ang magblog para gumaan ang nararamdaman ko. kumbaga yung mga nababasa nyo, yan yung kasalukuyan kong nararamdaman)
sa mga minahal ko (ng palihim at bulgaran hahaha)
sa mga kaibigan ko
sa bago kong pamilya (salamat sa pagtanggap sa akin)
ikaw, ikaw na kasalukuyang nagta tiyaga na basahin to, maraming salamat.
at higit sa lahat, kay papa Jesus. sorry po, madalas po akong disobedient sayo.
happy silver year to me!
february 2009
February 16th, 2009
25 random things about me
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just a repot..originally done in my facebook acct:)
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right-hand corner of the page), then click Publish.)
1. there’s nohing much about me ;p
2. if it weren’t due to my pregnancy, my laptop na sana ako haha shet kelangan kong magka laptop! o kahit personal PC pwede na
3. april must be my PTO month, to celebrate my parents’ first church wedding. bale 25th year kase nila. so i need to go home sa bicol. this is also the month na bibinyagan baby ko (lance kaizer). tska iba iba pang okasyon ng lobrino clan.
4. i’m missing my college days…haysss..
5. that equates me missing elbi 
6. i have a lot of friends or to say it right, acquaintances. i dont have the so called best friend. i have a lot of special friends as well.
7. when i was pregnant, meron lang akong 5 blouses at 4 leggings na sinuot ko mula ng mag 5months na ako. mahiluhin kase ako. kaya tinatamad akong mag mall. tska napaka choosy ko. but then natyaga ko mga damit na yan in 5months.
8. 3 hrs lang akong nag labor
9. i believe that pag masyado kayong PDA, ano pa pag dalawa na lang kayo? hahahaha
10. (shet ang li-lame na ng mga iniisip ko) simple lang ako, wala naman akong masyadong hinahangad sa mundo (ang drama)
11. dream kong makasali sa isang reality show haha
12. sana hindi ko na msyadong iniisip si frauleine
13. sana ma qualify ako sa 5k performance bonus
14. promise, pag natapos ang annual appraisal, ika-career ko ang IJAF
15. sana makapag work ako sa isang cruise ship 
16. ma visit ang home of morbid telenovelas - korea. not really morbid, puros dying kase ang theme nila pagdating sa love eh
17. matapos mapanood ang Autumn in my Heart, Winter Sonata, Summer Scent, at Spring Days.
18. nga pala, parati akong nagsisisi, hindi na rin naman mababago ang nakaraan
19. madalas akong mag imagine ng mga nakakatakot na pangyayari. for example, patawid ako ng road, bigla ko na lang ma iimagine ang sarili ko na nabunggo ng truck. gross diba? tapos kunyari nakasakay ako ng jeep, tas nakaupo ako sa may pinto, bigla ko na lang ma iimagine na nahulog ako
20. (25 minutes before 6pm) i love reading novels na about solving cases, normaly death of someone
21. hindi ako marunong tumawad hehehe talo pa ako ng asawa ko. kaya kapag nasa divisoria kame ituturo ko lang ano gusto kong bilhin, sya magtatanong sa tindera kung magkano at sila na mag uusap hehe
22. (ayan apat na lang) id rather was the dishes than cook
23. dati (single pa ako haha) magdedepend sa crush ko ang favorite color ko such as the color yellow (high school crush na laging may suot na yellow cap) and the color green (college crush ma mahilig sa green, clue: may green ang email add nya hahaha)
24. (20 min before 6pm) di pala matutuloy church wedding this year
25. at last! iyakin ako hindi lang obvious
February 16th, 2009
my 3 online accounts
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i have 3 online accounts that i maintain…
…friendster (lucenaespy@yahoo.com)
…multiply (xtaticxp@gmail.com)
…facebook (xtaticxp@gmail.com)
Multiply is where i upload all photos taken by my cam. I usually do my blog here (aside from doing it in my blogspot.com). Blogging here is so easy unlike in friendster.
Selected photos were then uploaded in myfriendster. Boring. Nag aantay na lang ako ng mga comments at mga photo comments sa mga tao.
Super selected photos aew also uploaded in myfacebook. All of the 3 accounts i have, i enjoyed this mostly due to the so called thing “apps”. It works real time, as in real time.
january 2009
January 12th, 2009
to do or not to do :P
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(a repost from loveslabyrinth.blogspot.com)
January 10, 2009 - 4:46pm
It’s Saturday and it’s a fine day. Will be on my restday tomorrow.
I’m currently thinking on how i’ll introduce my topic today when i heard this caller in LS FM asking the DJ’s Kiko and Dan of suggestions on how can she tell her parents that she’s pregnant.
Indeed getting pregnant out of wedlock is becoming a “so common” situation these days (to be honest, i preferred to be a single mom before). But whose to blame? parents? church? school? i dont think so.
as for me i dont like to blame anyone. una sa lahat it was you and your partner’s will.
yeah, i’m one of those. i cried. even decided not to pursue with it, stop working and go home in my province. then, i was able to get enough courage to tell my parents. they got mad of course. and wants us to get married asap. we were married thru a lawyer or a pastor i think (haven’t check our marriage contract). after nine months of being pregnant, there goes the baby. i was happy that he looks healthy and handsome. my being “happy” was cut short when i started to hate my husband for being so irresponsible and insensitive. i dont talk to him for a day or two when after i ok’d him to go out with his barkadas in a specified time limit and he wasnt able to meet it. the last time we had this kind of situation was last jan4.
he needed to meet his friend because he is borrowing money. of course hindi mawawala ang yayaan sa pag-inom. i allowed him to go out as long as he went home by 2 or 3am because we need to bring LK to his pedia the next day. aba, 5am na wala pa ang lolo mo. he arrived around 6 but i already texted him that i wont be bringing LK to his pedia. it’s not that i can’t do it alone coz we have a yaya but because i want him to know that his decision of prioritizing his barkadas will always have an impact to our baby.
when he arrived he is trying to explain that nagkaabutan daw yung dalawa nyang barkada (for whatever that means). when he realized that im not in the mood to listen he stopped. we havent discuss this event thoroughly but i’ll try to bring this up on one of our “before sleeping disussions”.
it’s past 11am already and the pedia is only available from 10am till 12nn. he woke up around 1130 i guess and asking why i didnt wake him up. of course i dont answer. he keeps on commanding me to get ready. i dont move.
him: so uunahin pa natin ang tampo-tampo, ang away?
i’m not responding. LK was not brought to his pedia for his scheduled vaccination until Tuesday.
this is the kind of situation where i always contemplate if i had made the right choice and cried non stop. ang choice na ipinagsiksikan ko ang sarili ko sa kanya. ang choice to continue having the baby. ang choice for us to get married. ano kaya nangyari if from the start that i learned i was just his second girlfriend, lumayo na ako?
i asked him once, “hindi ka ba nagsisisi?”
he answered firmly “hindi”.
January 4th, 2009
the year that was…
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indeed…
the year that was…
obviously, i had a preggy 2008…
a not so active year for me, im just so different from my real me - yung mejo competitive, masayahin.
but i will be back with a vengeance… will be focusing more on my career - naks, as if my career.
try ko ring maging emotionally stable pagdating sa asawa ko na ewan ko lang kung kelan pa ipa-prioritize ang anak…
yung balak naming church wedding is hindi ko pa sure kung matutuloy, ayoko pa kase…gusto ko kase kung ikakasal man kami sa simbahan gusto ko yung wala ng pagsisisi…siguro mag dedecide ako na go na if umabot ng isang buwan na hindi ako naiinis sa kanya or hindi kami nag aaway…sapaw na lang yung dahilan na walang budget…
pagdating naman sa anak ko na parating biktima kapag may away kami..well, tiyaga na lang muna sya sa nanay at tatay nya
december 2008
December 1st, 2008
careless whisper
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i guess i’d be happier kung naging single mom na lang ako
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june 2008
June 3rd, 2008
a post birthday post (creative noh)
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birthday ko kahapon…
salamat sa lahat ng bumati…
i just wish good health for me and my special someone inside me
yun lang…
february 2008
February 15th, 2008
UPLB FebFair 208
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During my thursday shift i was decided to go to UPLB no matter what by friiday night.
sabi ko kay kai (aka honey q0y) 5pm kami aalis. kamusta naman nasa ibayong mundo ata sya at ang 5pm namin ay naging 7pm.
kaya yan, watch nyo na lang moments namin habang nag aayus sya. kung pwede nga lang magmoments sa terminal ng bus sa buendia, magkukuha din ako ng pix eh. sa tagal ba namang dumating ng bus!
pagtawag ko sa workforce para mag call in, ang sabi naka-leave daw ako ngayong gabi at bukas ng gabi. swerte nga naman diba. hirap na hirap na akong magcompose ng reason for call in ko eh hehe
ayun, 10pm na ata kami nakarating. dinner sana kami sa LB aquare, kaso la na sila mga food
so punta na lang kami sa field, ayun nakasalubong ko naman si paul dela viña.
pagdating sa field kita ko sina abee, charmie at pia, ewan ko ba at nakalimutan kong magpapix haha nakita ko rin si tet
at nahanap na rin namin papu’s booth
hayy feeling op ako hahaha
andun sina kuya wency at ate cel
kumain na lang kami, i was so expecting na masusulosyunan ng siomai ang gutom ko but no! napahiya tuloy ako kay kai, pinagyayabang ko pa man din ang sarap ng siomai, eh isa’t kalahati lang ata ng siomai ang nakain ko. bat gnun? sabi nga ni ate sheng, "adulterated" na daw haha
ayun marami pa akong nakitang kakilala
lech, la pala kaming pix nina my at oca! anu ba yan!
ayun, sumaglit din ako sa mga sisses, at sa saglit kong yun, muntik pa kami mag away, buti na lang asa bag ko ang wallet at isa nyang cellphone. sabi nya kase parati ko daw syang iniiwan tuwing may makikita akong kakilala, as if la daw ako kasama. ayun, lumamig naman ulo nya.
tas we decided na uminom. so lakad kami towards lb square na hindi na rin nag aacept ng order. punta kami isis pero ayaw nya. balik na lang kami. rest sa carabao park. then uwi na lang daw kami pabalik ng maynila. ayun swerte naman at may bus kaagad sa calamba crossing pagdating namin. at ang byahe? LRT taft- buendia. by 4:15 asa haus na kami. hayyy. next time nga try ko din diliman hehe
for the pixies:
http://loveslabyrinth.multiply.com/photos/album/34/UPLB_FebFair_2008
then click the pix, para lumaki haha
HE LOOK OLD GURL..JUST LYK MY PAPPY..HEHEHE
February 13th, 2008
a personal msg frm my tita based in holland, baka may mapulot rin kayong lessons
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a personal msg frm my tita based in holland, baka may mapulot rin kayong lessons
Hi, I sent you 4 samples of really important messages that will inspire
you to make or start to broaden your field in communications. Every now
and then do think of a topic with importance that makes the reader read it
twice or thrice. Make some research, write it down and develop.
Inasmuch as you love writing down some "survey" in your profile`s bulletin portion, I`d rather suggest you to contribute something more of importance
noting that you came from a very high regarded educational institution and
you`re very vocal about it too. In this case, I expected more from you than
just asking….what are you wearing now?…what is your favorite color? what did you eat last night….oh common, this is only for Esther & Mary to read.
I hope I enlightened you who you are, an intelligent one in the family. You
are young , meaning plenty of time to sharpen your knowledge in the field
of communications. Who knows, you will become a famous writer and who
else will be proud of you if you have a permanent column in one of the most
popular newspaper in your own country, WE, MURALLOS & LUCENA CLAN.
Have a great week-end further. Auntie.
then i replied,
hi auntie
thnks for the tip Ü
kaya lang po i lost interest na po in writing, actually di naman po talaga ako magaling magsulat, tyinaga ko lang yung college days ko para maka graduate on time…. as a working individual, hindi na rin po kame concern kung san kami graduate but on how we put quality in our work.
maybe if you can read my blog, halos lahat po ay tag-lish, wala po atang straight english
and mostly ginagawa ko na lang po sya na parang diary lang…
nga po pala, san po yung samples? dito rin po sa email? wala po kase yatang kasamang attachment…
cge po auntie…
sagot nya,
Hello, I sent u 4 emails plus this one where you replied on. Those are forwarded emails
that I found nice and informative so I forwarded it to you too. So, you mean you didn`t improve yourself at school, I mean your command of english which is very necessary to
your course. You excelled in this subject when you`re in the elem. grade and even in high
school. If I remember right, you sent me 2 letters and it was all written nicely in english, (not taglish) with just a little mistake in grammar. I wonder what happened to you in college. Was it because you were on your own, very free to do what you like. Well, it`s your life, you are matured now to decide for yourself, esp.what is good for you to make your future brighter. Do you really love your work now? A greener pasture didn`t cross your mind yet? I remember your Uncle Genis when he was your age, was so busy looking
for scholarship and been turned down because of the age requirement, he was young.
Then he found Phil-Japanese scholarship, underwent rigid interviews & exams, and I think they were lucky 12 (more or less) to undergo training in Japan. They were the pioneers who put up National Maritime Polytechnic, installed all the equipments there and it paid off. He`s now the Executive Director, but before getting this position he still has to undergo interviews (not to mention a secret background interview) and exams. His wide experience helped a lot to land him back to where he originally belong, getting the highest position too. Before he left NMP due to the illness of your Aunt Emma, he was the 3rd topman of NMP already and a respected Professor.
Well, this is a story I can`t forget and again am forwarding it to you not just a tip but
something to ponder on. This is a long email but I enjoyed writing it. Till then and bye for now. Warm greetings, Auntie
P.S. Walang attachment ang forwarded emails ko, just scroll it down, down below and just click the "show Image" so the images of the story will come out. I sent all these one after the other at wala namang bumalik sa akin. There`s always a notice from the mail server if it can`t be delivered.
so far la pa ako reply, nag iisp pa ako eh
February 8th, 2008
so san ako?
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whoa!!!
my mind was set in attending tata’s and lorie’s modelling launch tomorrow, 09feb08, saturday at the bluewave. i actually bought a ticket already when lorie and i met last monday at glorietta (when i have to get the dresses im borrowing from her for gemma’s upcoming wedding). i would even be absent for this activity, fortunately i was approved for a paid leave, so i dont have to worry about thinking of an excuse on why i should be absent for my shift.
but then, when i woke up this evening, i got an SMS from etchen (lorie’s and i common friend) saying that she wont be able to make it! my god etch, ive been waiting for tomorrow so we could meet already! can you still remember the last time that we met? that was like two years ago! but then, what can i do? she might get sick…
so then i texted sarah, only to find out that they wont be coming as well *sigh* and they just decided to party in greenbelt tonight with the following high school friends: bep, arra, junnel, tristan, maricel, briggs, and chie. but then, just with the sight of his name, i sudden felt an "unidentified feeling", which makes me keep on thinking twice if i’ll confirm my presence.
i’m planning to go with kai, but then i know i shouldnt.
so what will i do tonight?
February 5th, 2008
LIVING.TELLING.CHANGING
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i was in lb last sun to attend the yp meeting with my so loved org - UPLBNAVS… uhuh… i came from my shift that day. i actually went home after the meeting. <addik!> living telling changing… hmmm na-op ata ako hehehe ang hirap magpaka plastik no? anyway… yan po kase discussion namin, well about being a christian in a workplace… so what can i say… in the first place, im not really a "christian in action" hehe (what’s funny there?) so living palang zero balance na ako… how can i tell? eh at the start pa lang ayaw ko mag lead ng BS… pano pa ako magiging factor ng change? but then im not really a bad person, yun nga lang sometimes i swear… and im doing a thing that i shouldnt be doing as a woman… weird noh? i know what’s wrong but still i do it… now, dont quote me on this, ihiwalay nyo ko sa mga values ng NAVS dahil hindi ako ang nagdadala sa kanila… wag nyo rin sanang isipin na hindi sila effective dahil kung ano at sino ako choice ko toh… un lang po… |
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on December 7th, 2008 at 11:16 pm
ha?bakit?
on December 19th, 2008 at 12:22 am
seryoso ka ba? epekto ba ito ng post-partum depression?
on December 26th, 2008 at 6:50 pm
hmm… i’m curious as to why you feel that way. but i feel exactly the same thing.
on January 4th, 2009 at 4:11 am
to answer y’all
basahin nyo na lang next blog ko hehehe