welcome me!

hi! this is espy, signing on...

it's been a long time... i miss being inlove and being a victim of love hehehe

so why i created a blogspot account? hmmmm... i hacked my husband's friendster account and then went to his inbox and read everything there... and i saw his' ex's messages...

layo na rin ng narating namin... from being a second gf (of course without my knowledge) to being his wife...

pero minsan may nararamdaman akong pagsisisi, napag usapan na namin to kase nga nagdadalawang isip pa ako kung itutuloy ba namin ang church wedding sa march. nangungulit na nga mga parents namin at mga tita nya. pano ba namin kase wala pa talaga kaming nasisimulan. kahit man lang simbahan na balak namin iheld ang kasal.

sometimes, im also thinking if it would have been better kung naging single mom na lang ako. minsan kase mas inuuna nya pa barkada nya.

minsan nga ayoko na mag dwell sa mga nangyari eh, kase nangyari na, may magagawa pa ba ako para mabago ang lahat? wala na. so siguro ayusin ko na lang buhay ko, maging nanay na lang ako sa baby ko.

so far ok naman status namin. sana lang hindi na masundan yung away namin last sunday.

the year that was...

indeed...

the year that was...

obviously, i had a preggy 2008...

a not so active year for me, im just so different from my real me - yung mejo competitive, masayahin.

but i will be back with a vengeance... will be focusing more on my career - naks, as if my career.

try ko ring maging emotionally stable pagdating sa asawa ko na ewan ko lang kung kelan pa ipa-prioritize ang anak...

yung balak naming church wedding is hindi ko pa sure kung matutuloy, ayoko pa kase...gusto ko kase kung ikakasal man kami sa simbahan gusto ko yung wala ng pagsisisi...siguro mag dedecide ako na go na if umabot ng isang buwan na hindi ako naiinis sa kanya or hindi kami nag aaway...sapaw na lang yung dahilan na walang budget...

pagdating naman sa anak ko na parating biktima kapag may away kami..well, tiyaga na lang muna sya sa nanay at tatay nya

before and after

eto ako last year

eto naman ako ngayon

 

 

 

 

careless whisper

i know magiging immature na naman ako sa ipopost ko...masyadong di pinag-isipan kung magiging maganda ba ang effect o mas lalong makakasama but i want to let it out of my mind no matter what other people will perceive...

hay sana lang naging single mom na lang ako... siguro mas magiging masaya pa ako... walang aasahan... walang kailangang i-expect

help

any tips on how to upload pix faster?

im trying to upload 20pix but it will take me a total of at least 56 minutes..

tas nagloko pa after 25minutes back to zero tuloy ako...

kainis

tas isang pic lang mahigit kumulang 3min amp!

the navigators - Palm Springs Outing (2004)

http://uplbnavs.multiply.com/photos/album/35/Palm_Springs_Outing_2004

the navigators - NSYC 2005

http://uplbnavs.multiply.com/photos/album/36/NSYC_2005