Wednesday, May 11, 2011

sept 2005

September 25th, 2005

the point of no

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return? could be… especially if you already put ur past behind… or if you just thought you already leave it behind… (can you please try to explain what could be the connection of that phrase in question and the succeding sentences?)

somehow, somewhere, it will be like a ghost that will haunt you… especially if no reconcialiation has been done in both damaged parties…time will come, no matter how long (it took eleven years from the novel im reading, im quite near to its ending Ü) you will have to settle those unsettled things, make truce, forgive, forget (hopefully just the past, and another kind of friendship will bloom in its proper time), love… never mind the last thing i suggested…

lakas ba tama ng pagbabasa ng novel? di ko masummarize yung kwento dito eh, sobra kahaba…

September 13th, 2005

FiNdInG tHe RigHt PeRsOn

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Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong…
it is best to be the right person for the one you love
and start from there…you’ll always end up disappointed
when you set standards and define a "right person" for
you…and don’t rush things coz somewhere somehow God is
preparing somebody for you."

Don’t be in a hurry to get into a relationship because
you can never find love if you insist that you are
already into it. Try to find time to really understand
your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what
you really want in a relationship. You’re right, there’s
no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there’s a
compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you
already knew that you’re too big to fit into a small
sized t-shirt, don’t give it a try. You’ll probably
break it and pay for the damages you have made.

If you knew and felt that the relationship will not
last, don’t go deeper into it. You’ll just suffer the
consequences and live like hell for the rest of your
life. It’s really hard to say goodbye though, but you
can’t make it any better by just pretending you still
have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself
a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a
chance to grow and give your heart a much needed
attention. Then you will find that you have made the
right decision and you made it all by yourself.
We call it love when we can’t leave someone and see
them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it’s
just pity.

We call it love when we’re too attached and think that
losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and
unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood,
its just that we’re too much dependent to them.
We call it love when we give our whole life to them,
the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave,
no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken,
its just insecurity.

But no matter what the definition is, the truth still
remains that love isn’t something you can buy or beg.
It is real and existing. You can’t touch it but you
can feel it in your heart. You can’t find it, but it
will knock before you when you least expect it to
come. It can make you the happiest soul in heaven,
but don’t forget that it can also make you the most
miserable person in the whole galaxy…

September 6th, 2005

the day you said good…

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hay naku, ano ba meron sa hale? at baliw na baliw ang mga kadalagahan dito?

anyway, walang awayan hehe nakita ko na rin sila when i attended their concert in UP Bahay ng Alumni

anong balita? as much as i want to paste our discussion here, ayoko naman, kc mamya bka mabisto nya na ako..i-personalize ko na lang isend sa mga tao hehehe

ika nga ni ate gen:pangarap ka na lang ba o magiging katotohanan

honestly, di ito ang orig na them ng post ko..kya lang kulang me sa concentration, and im really trying to remove him in my mind…hirap makalimot..ika nga ng song

"i remember the boy, but i cant remember the feeling anymore…"

September 1st, 2005

lief ends

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Anong araw na ba ngayon>?

Supposedly, aug 27 ko pa iti-check ang mail ko… but then, wag ka, akoy inatake ng ulcer! Badtrip!

Ano na ngayon? Byernes, isang araw na lang sabado na naman, two weeks ko ng di nababasa mga mails ko……hay………….

DISCLAIMER: wala kayong mapapala dto, plain life story ko lang ito over the past two weeks…di ako mahilig mag-connect sa lesson of life eh hehehe

Anyways, days before aug27, ang ganda ng mga plano kong isusulat dito sa journal ko hehe

About the calls that I received within the week, mga napaligaya ko, mga naasar dahil sa aking one moment line hehehe just to ask someone about what to say and what to do etc etc

Tas kc bawal magpalit ng names or gumamit ng alias, so ako na ang ganda-ganda ng name, esperanza ever pa rin ang gamit ko…kya pag nasagot ako ng call, ganire:

Me: USAIRWAYS, ESPERANZA

Caller: Oh hi BRENDA!

Oh dava? Ang bingi! Pero di ko na sila kino-correct para if ever may mgawa akong mali, hindi si esperanza ang irereklamo nila, si brenda, kung sino man yun hehehe

Malas na lang kung may brenda na nag-eexist na reservation sales rep hehehe

Basta mas marami naman akong naging magandang calls insated of horrifying calls hehehe

Alam nyo ba? Nilalagnat ako ng first day of work ko til wed…tpos dahiol nga di ako kumain ng matino ng Monday nyt, inubo ako..maliban kc sa ulcer/gastritis, ubo ang effect sa akin kpg ako’y nalipasan ng gutom…so starting wed nyt, umuubo na ako while taking calls…

Basta yun, sat am na ako nagsuka,. At dinala na me sa hospital, and the doc advised me to rest for five days…Sunday nyt, my mother texted my uncle that shell be arriving in munti on monday nyt…

Basta in short, pinagresign na ako..badtrip..kya ko na sanang pumasok by thur eh…nakapasok nga ako ng 38 degrees celcius ang temp ko eh..diba? basta last wed, binigay ko na reisgnation letter ko … kya lang di pa tapos proces kc, I nid a doc cert saying that im not fit to work etc etc

Uy punta ako ng lb sa sep10 ha?tas uwi na yata me ng bikol on sep11 or 12

may 2005

May 10th, 2005

la lang

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been to

soda beach, matalibong tiwi, albay

cagsawa ruins

mayon resthouse

dhio endheka spring rsort, buang tabaco city

pili cam sur

botolan,zambales

lubao, pampanga

clark airbase

uminagn pangasinan

august 2005

August 14th, 2005

babasahin nyo ba/

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ewan kko..txt me 09203541851

or drop a line either in my ym or friendster

splucena6284@yahoo.com

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

saan? alin?

OMG!

ang daming happenings ngayong april...

last november na-set na yung reunion sa bikol ng clan nina kaizer this coming holy week. syempre masaya to kahit holy week, reunion eh. tska at least makakauwi na naman ng bikol. then iiwan na rin si LK for his summer vacation with my parents. problem is wala pa akong nakukuhang definite date. 

apparently, by january, i receive a text from my cousin inviting for her 18th bday on april 24th. that's easter sunday. katatapos lang ng holy week. asa manila na kaya kami nito? paano si LK? eh luluwas din ng manila ang pamilya ko by april 22nd to attend lara's bday. kung nakauwi naman na kami nito kawawa naman si LK sa byahe. plane? mahal na yan. katatapos lang ng promo ng cebu pac for april flights. ang corny naman kung ako lang ang aatend at yung mag ama ko ay hindi. BUT NO! i can't skip this event, hindi dahil excited ako sa theme (hehehehe) pero lara is special to me. hindi na syempre mauulit ang 18th bday nya.

kung mas pipiliin ko naman yung bikol, may chance na maka attend rin ako ng events na organized ng mga high school batchmates. ika nga 2 birds in one stone. 

kailangang alamin ang sched sa bikol. gusto ko ng bilhan ng damit si lance para sa birthday ni tita lara nya 

and i want this:


hahaha joke lang. baka di ako papasukin hehehe

Sunday, December 5, 2010

insecurity kills the cat

i know, but i'm a no-brainer so curiosity wouldn't kill me...

We had watch the last installment of The Chronicles of Narnia last Saturday, and one scene made me cry.

I don't know if i am just imagining things but of course we're husband and wife. After we went down from the jeepney I waited for him to hold my hands. Done counting silently so i made the effort.

The last full show wil be at 10:20pm and we still have an hour to waste. We went to the department store and bought myself sandals. I don't know if its not really his thing but I can't feel him. But then I just tried to ignore what i'm thinking.

Then there goes the movie. I can relate myself to LUCY - wanting to become someone else, being jealous (?). Aslan appeared and left these words to Lucy:

"You doubt your value. Don't run from who you are."

Tears came falling from eyes without him knowing. Then I just realized that somehow after "the event" that had happened in our lives i've been trying to find out who that girl is. Maybe somehow i could imitate her and maybe somehow it could make him fall in love with me again.

So much with that...

Another thing happened that made me insecure (damn this feeling!). Although I was already advised who the _______ are but stil when I saw them I felt bad especially when I realized that some of them are younger than me. Siguro nga I dont deserve to be one of them. I dont belong, kumbaga.

hayyy,  a lot of things to fix inside me....

Ciao!