its complicated

2 things: marriage and work.

WORK:
i had this thought last friday: setting a goal is bad for your health.

i know i sound so negative. but that is what i am feeling.

ang hirap kapag malapit ka na sa finish line pero ang layo sa katotohanan ng nagaganap sa gusto mong mangyari. ang sakit diba? kaya mula ngayon, gagawin ko na lang kung anong kaya kong gawin.

MARRIAGE:
i'm married at the wrong time, for (i can't say wrong) some reason.

lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na nangyari na ang lahat. hindi na maaring mabura ang nakaraan at ang mga pangyayari. pagsisisihan ko pa ba naman si lance?

kaya lang minsan talaga ang hirap. may mga oras na tinatanong ko ang sarili ko kung kailangan ko ba talagang gawin ang mga bagay dahil kasal kami o dapat gawin ko lang kase gusto ko.

hay life, its complicated indeed!

cant read my, cant read my, no you cant read my poker face

too many distractions

walang "personal"-an pero...

"all accumulated pers0nal breaks will be deducted from employees' salary to avoid overpersonal and abusing aux usage"

tama ba to?

kaso la ako mahanap sa labor code eh, lunch lang meron which states:
ARTICLE 85. Meal periods. – Subject to such regulations as the Secretary of Labor may prescribe, it shall be the duty of every employer to give his employees not less than sixty (60) minutes time-off for their regular meals.

eto naman sa short periods:
ARTICLE 84. Hours worked - Rest periods of short duration during working hours shall be counted as hours worked.

currently immobile (immobile talaga?!) coma po cp ko ngayon (hindi pa nga bayad eh). nasira kahapon ni LK The Destroyer. hayyy mamimiss ko ang mobile facebook, ang aking pampa antok.

naiirita ako sa multiply ha

my 26th birthday blog

i've been on a roller coaster ride again the past few weeks...

and if i could only jump on that roller coaster...

sorry if i'm being morbid.

anywhoo, i reviewed my blogposts for june 2009.

just so sad to find out that i wasnt able to hold on to my promise:

that is to become more aggressive and fearless.

and it seemed so opposite on what i have decided to do with my life from this day onwards.

from my last year's birthday blog, i sound so positive and contented with my life.

but now? i dont know. maybe because i'm getting jealous?

to whom? i dont know either. maybe jealous of what other people are capable of doing with their lives?

yeah, i know. you'd say, live life to the fullest, life is so short for you to waste it. 

well i'd say, coz you have the money to live your lives to the fullest.

i know, you dont want to continue reading this crap. go. i dont care. i'm over it.

i'll just think that this is the life designed for me. and i wont have the life that im dreaming of. in this way i wont get jealous.

my only wish is that you pray for me. i'll try my best to work out on my attitude with my life.

for the meantime i will be wearing a mask. and i hope in time this mask would fade and reveal a new me, an understanding me, the one who would be capable of accepting the realities of life.